Tag: 13×21

13.21 coda fic

waywardsam:

“I’m gettin’ to Jack, one way or the other. The only question is, you coming with? Or that?”

Lucifer shines his flashlight on the swarm of vampires clawing at the entrance, and Sam knows he’s right. With or without him, Lucifer will get to Jack. To Dean, to Cas, to Mom – everyone. As always, Sam’s choice is no choice at all.

The voice inside his head is screaming a siren of “I told you so.” Letting Lucifer into the bunker, letting him anywhere near Sam or his family is always a mistake. No matter how many times they think they have him trapped, it always ends the same way: with the Devil on the loose, and standing in front of Sam. Again.

But “I told you so’s” mean about as much as his illusion of free will right now. Which is to say, nothing at all. Even if Sam chooses the the vampires, there is no doubt in his mind that Lucifer will bring him back and offer him the same deal again. And again, and again, and again, until he gets what he wants. It’s not the first time they’ve played this game, after all.

(Sam’s mind flashes back to motel rooms and overdoses, and guns pressed against his temple and waking up gasping every. Single. Time. “I’ll kill myself before letting you in” hadn’t worked then either.)

And Lucifer is looking at him, looming large in the shadows with his fingers poised to release the horde of vamps, and Sam wishes he hadn’t brought him back. He would rather be dead in a foreign world than feel this helpless again. As much as he wants to say “go to Hell” he knows it won’t change the outcome.

The Devil has a chain wrapped around his neck as sure the blood drying stiff on his throat, and no matter what he chooses he’ll have to say yes. 

wxncesters:

txdora:

arkvark2:

supernaturalnardog:

Can y’all chill out for two seconds and cut Dean some slack? He did not “leave Sam to die alone” okay? When he left he thought Sam was already dead, he saw his carotid artery bleed out, he KNEW there was no way Sam would still be alive by the time he got to him so he made the decision to get the others back to camp first because he knew it’s what Sam would want. Dean was completely fucking devasted by Sam’s death and couldn’t bring himself to tell Mary what happened, he just stood there and cried because his heart was shattered into million pieces and some of y’all have the nerve to accuse Dean of not loving Sam enough? All Dean could think about from the second he left Sam was getting back to him, and he clearly stated at the end that he was heading back for Sam’s body (even though as @nothingidputbeforeyou pointed out, it would have been a suicide mission, so no, the codependency still isn’t broken). You don’t have to be happy about Dean leaving Sam’s dead body behind, I’m not particularly happy about it myself, but don’t go around spouting ridiculous accusations that Dean doesn’t still love Sam more than anyone else on the planet because of it. Miss me with that bullshit.

Exactly this.  If Dean had gone after Sam’s body he would have been killed by a horde of crazed vampires, it was a worse situation than the situation in “Red Meat” (SPN’s version of Romeo and Juliet).  Like “Red Meat”, Dean intended to go back for Sam’s body once he got the surivors (and himsef) to safety.  Dean was barely himself when he was reunited with Mary, he wasn’t himself and Jensen knocked it out of the park with his acting.  

SO MUCH ^THIS.

He wasn’t even happy to see Mary and Jack, really. It was hurting him that much that succeeding at what they were trying to accomplish in the first place didn’t even help him because to Dean, losing Sam meant that the mission wasn’t a success. Dean loves his brother. Screw anyone who says anything different.