As I stood in line with a fellow con-goer in front of me, we freaked out together. We gushed at how much this meant to one another and watched as the Jensen photo ops were being printed next to us. My heart was racing, my mouth was dry, and this moment that I have dreamed about for so many years was about to become a reality. One of the volunteers saw me flailing my arms as I tried to calm myself down and keep my makeup from running (that was my best friend’s whole goal of the day: for me not to mess up my makeup that I had spent so long on doing the morning of). She approached me and said “breathe” which was something I really needed to hear.
“My mouth is so dry I can’t.” I probably said (I don’t quite remember). At this point, I could only see their bodies because their heads were being blocked off by the black umbrella studio lights. The volunteer laughed at me.
“I’ve got tissues ready for you girls if you need them. Don’t mess up your make up!” She said and pulled out a travel size kit of tissues while the line inched closer and closer to J2.
“That’s what I’m saying! I already slightly cried in my seat while I waited for them to call my number. ” She laughed again and next thing you know, I was four people away. Hands were shaking (just like they are now typing this) and my jaw was hanging wide open at the BEAUTY OF THESE BOYS! I mean, holy shit I thought they were attractive on TV and in pictures. I’ve gotten their autographs at Vegas Con so I’ve seen them up close and personal but with the studio lights hitting them at all the right angles and everything??!! Lord have mercy! My eyes kept darting between the two because I knew I only had so long to take this all in before it was my turn (obviously I had to look at Jensen longer since he is my favorite). The girl who I was fangirling in line with jumped between the boys and my black combat boots stood behind the silver duct tape line with the biggest smile on my face. Jensen LOOKED BACK AT ME, SMILED, AND GAVE ME A SLIGHT HEAD NOD, then continued on with his picture. WHAT DID I EVER DO TO DESERVE THE LOOKS THIS MAN GIVES ME!!!!!!!!!?
The volunteer ushered me over to the boys and I honestly have no idea how I kept it together since I was such a mess beforehand. With my back to Chris and the camera, I threw my arms up and said, “Hi I want the biggest hug ever!” while turning my head to both Jared and Jensen, looking at them. They both smiled.
“You got it.” Jensen said in his husky voice that I have fallen in love with after so many years. I immediately wrapped my arms around Jensen’s waist and buried my head into his chest. It was such a big hug alone and then I felt Jared wrap his arms around us and it was like the biggest bear hug ever. I smiled, Chris snapped the picture, and just like that, I had to let go. Let go and leave these two that I love so dearly behind so that others could have this same moment.
“Bye, I love you both.” I backed up, studying their faces one more time before the next fan took my place. They smiled and waved me off and with the biggest smile on my face, my heart full and beating out of my chest, I went to meet my best friend on the other side.
I can’t stop looking at this picture, I can’t stop crying over it. I never expected myself to fall in love with such humble and loving people that are more than characters on my favorite TV show. These two mean everything to me. And this sandwich sure as hell won’t be the last.
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