can’t i just have both lol

holdmesamthatwasbeautiful:

constantly torn between wanting sam to love himself,
to feel pure and clean and worthy and good aaaand wanting him to go so fucking dark, to give in to his abilities, stop
being ashamed of who he is and what he can do and just let go, seize the throne
that is rightfully his and make the world tremble at his feet with dean by his
side who’s thrumming with pride and
respect for his dangerously powerful brother