If I Ever Lose My Faith in You by JustineDelarge Dean throwing away the amulet left a deeper wound in Sam than Dean realized.
Sacredness in Tears by queerly_it_is Dean gets sick and feverish, then loses the ability to control his emotions. A whole lotta repression gets undone real fast.
Ashes by themegalosaurus Since the trials, Dean won’t touch Sam, and Sam doesn’t know why.
The Day After by alyssa_39 Dean’s been off all day, but when Sam comes back to the motel room after picking up lunch, he can tell something is really wrong.
In The Long Run by WincestSounds (Cammerel) Sam is the older brother and he still left for Stanford, leaving his brother to fend alone with John. He comes back and Dean is… different.
The Child Corrupted by lexicale Sam grew up in Master Azazel’s house – he doesn’t know any different kind of world. When a hunter named Dean Winchester frees him, he doesn’t even know that he’s free. In his mind, he merely has a new master. Dean, of course, is oblivious.
hi yaelstiel here we go, some hurt!Sammy with protective!Dean, and please, check tipsysam blog, if I’m correct, Hanna has a lot of hurt!sam in her fic-rec tag and she’s wonderful.
Dictionary for a Dead Language by britomart_is Under mysterious circumstances bitterly disputed by the historians, Sam Winchester said yes to Lucifer. Three years later, Lucifer is gone and
the familiar landscape that the Winchesters once traversed is a
burnt-out ruin of its former self — not to mention the damage done to
Lucifer’s vessel. Trapped in a grotesque parody of domestic bliss with a
brother he no longer recognizes, a shell-shocked Dean has no reason to
believe that happy endings exist for men like the Winchesters.
Pins & Needles by theashopmuses A
lot can change in an instant. Six months ago, Sam was injured in the
course of a hunt that went terribly wrong. Now, there’s something in the
woods of Michigan’s upper peninsula, stalking, beating, and killing
people in the tiny town of Big Bay. A retired hunter calls Sam and Dean
in to investigate, but they’re also still dealing with the aftermath of
that hunt-gone-wrong, and the effect it’s had on their relationship.
The Three Kings Verse by cosmic_medusa. N/A: When I saw Sam sneaking out behind a dumpster to drink demon blood, I said aloud “oh…he’s an addict.” And,
dealing with a loved one with addiction, it completely seized me. I love
the show as a whole, and I suppose I long for a family as loving and
open as the one I’ve attempted to create below, trying to base it
completely off of the amazing canon themes of family Kripke created. As a
blanket statement, please be alert to themes of drug abuse, alcoholism,
child abuse, addiction, depression, and anxiety. I have done my best to
address these themes with honesty, but also humor, and much, much love,
which is what we’re all looking for, no matter what our issues and
across all vices.
Stay The Distance by lazy_daze. (S/6) Sam is dependent on Dean’s touch and closeness after
the wall falls – Dean’s presence reminds him of why he chose to wake up,
and keeps the memories at bay, allowing Sam to function. The brothers
have to face up to what happens when their Winchester codependency
becomes literal, and the physical, spatial and temporal boundaries of
their bond blur the line between familiar and suffocating, comforting
and limiting
Deeper Than Skin by Meigun-Blaze: When a sudden snowstorm has Sam remembering Hell and his body
temperature dropping, Dean has to get him warm again, using any means
necessary
Under Sufferance by veronamayFrom this prompt on blindfold_spn: Sam/Dean,
touch-starvation. Besides other things, Lucifer touch-starves Sam in
Hell as punishment (Sam did fall in the Pit with his entire body and
all…). Once out, Sam cannot bring himself to ask Dean despite how
badly he needs it. Dean needs to realize what Sam’s problem is, and how
to get himself to help, since constant touching doesn’t exactly come
naturally to him.Set between seasons 5 and 6.
Consider the Hairpin Turn Masterpost by cherie_morte : AU of 6×22: Sam’s wall has shattered and the memories in his mind have
splintered. When the Sam who remembers Hell tells him to go find Jess
and be happy, Sam knows he can’t stay while Dean needs him. But when the
Sam from Hell says that Dean is already there looking for him, Sam
leaves his memories of the pit behind to find him. What he finds is a
life he doesn’t remember: a house that he shares with his brother (and
has for years), a law career he thought he’d left behind at Stanford,
and a relationship with Dean he never dreamed he could have. Life is
almost too good to be true, at least until Sam begins to hear his
brother’s voice calling to him, begging him to wake up
Under The Falling Sky by slf630 For this prompt at the kink meme: After leaving the chapel, Sam and Dean get into the backseat of the impala.
At first it’s just big brother mode Dean making sure Sammy is okay, but
it slowly turns sexual as Dean realizes how close he got to losing his
little brother. Lots of kissing, gentle sex because Sam is pretty beat
up, cookie points if you pay homage to the season 3 finale with comments
such as “I got you”.
General Shootingand its sequel Making it through by callistosh65.mild R of the Sam/Dean variety – which is mostly because Sam is not feeling well and Dean has a potty mouth. Dean: “Sammy, I need you to be honest with me from here on out, man.” Sam: “You’re right. And I will be.” -8.17. Goodbye Stranger-
Two souls!verse (WIP) by mlebayreThis is mostly AU. I’ve taken cannon and events from all four seasons, but they are more references than
spoilers. In this verse Sam never dies, so Dean never makes his deal
Invisible line by: TiTivillus
Cole’s first mistake
was going after Dean. His second mistake- the one that would cost him
his life- was hurting Sammy. Season 10, Hurt!Sam, Protective!Dean (sunshinesamwinchester I’m still searching for season 10 fics,maybe this can works for you?)
Everyone loves a good sex pollen fuck-or-die story, right? Love potions, fertility rituals, the-demons-made-them-do-it and whatnot. But what if nothing forced them? What if they discovered a magic ritual that was really useful, but not even exactly necessary, and all Sam and Dean had to do was just kiss? And what if that still changed everything?
Sam manages to claim the Big Bang of his favorite fanfiction author. Dean’s last Big Bang gets claimed by an unknown, incredibly bad, but earnest artist. (Funny, smutty , cute)
In a world where all three Winchester brothers made it out of that building without becoming angel suits, Sam has to adjust to his new role in Dean’s life and Adam’s obsession with his sex life.( Switching, FUnny, AWEsome with adam )
When Sam explores a mysterious cavern deep in the woods behind the Bunker, he accidentally awakens a sheevra, a mischievous fairy spirit that intrudes the minds of its victims and feeds on emotions.
Meta-comedy/drama set immediately post-4×18, The Monster at the End of This Book. Dean can’t stop wondering why people would write gay porn about him and Sam. Research takes him to interesting places; re-reading novels for subtext, visiting message boards, and a really freaky place called LiveJournal. What he discovers is a sick fascination with fanfiction, more about gay sex than he ever wanted to know, and an even deeper obsession with understanding why people write this stuff. (FUNNY, angsty and awesome)
Cri de Coeur [The Heart’s Cry] by kelleigh (girlfromcarolina) : Sam and Dean could use a break after banishing God’s sister to the far reaches of oblivion. However, a new case drops into their laps when they receive a message sent to the Men of Letters using a strange old code. (HORROR< AWESOME)
Sam and Dean have been pranking each other since they were kids. It was sort of a routine, though it has been tamped down by all the hunting and serious business, boss fights. (Funny, sexy and prank wars )
What better way to investigate a marriage counselor (who may or may not be responsible for the death of six of her clients) than to go to marriage counseling? It’s just pretend right? No different than putting on the FBI suits. Of course, nothing ever goes according to plan, and Sam and Dean quickly get more than they bargained for. ( SO much talking and so much 😉
Sam Winchester lived the first six months of his life in a happy family; the next twelve years as John Winchester’s only son, and the last decade as an orphan. He’s supposed to die at twenty-two trying to save the woman he loves from a fire, because he doesn’t have a brother to pull him back. But the night Sam meets his Reaper he discovers that Death is overly fond of pop-culture references, too beautiful to be real, and reluctant to kill him. ( Fav raised apart au )
Dean has found them a new case – and Dean being Dean it´s not just a simple salt & burn, but a bit more exotic… Good thing Sam has always dreamed of posing as his brother´s submissive in some weird BDSM Club that somehow belong to an old friend of Deans’ he´s never even heard of. (SExy )
oh, there are always J2 fics that need more love, always always<3 I won’t even be able to touch on 1/100th of the fics that deserve more praise or just a good reminder that they exist, but here are some recs:
After ten seasons, Jared’s ready to act on his attraction to Jensen. He spends four weeks taking a massage therapy class before putting his plan into action, but when he sees Jensen in real pain after a strenuous scene, Jared is forced to make a few adjustments.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 3,333; Warning: None
Jared’s party-animal reputation gets him accepted into the notorious Alpha Epsilon Pi house (or as they call it, APE) easier than a game of hopscotch – but what he doesn’t expect to find there is someone who totally harshes his vibe: Jensen Ackles; a prude with a stick up his ass the size of Texas. Fortunately, Jared loves a challenge.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 16,484; Warning: Drug Use, Homophobia, Misogyny
The planner is open to this week, names like Brian, Thomas and Will jotted next to little notes like rope bondage, shower first, and likes feet. Jared finds his name under Friday.
Rating: Mature; Word Count: 2,237; Warning: Prostitution
If not for his mama, Jensen and Jared might’ve never stumbled over each other. Jensen at dewy nine, scabby-kneed on the muddy ground, resigned to his daily ass-kicking from the neighborhood roughnecks and wild-haired, pointy-boned Jared standing taller, impossibly tall from Jensen’s vantage in the dirt, standing straight and true like he held up heaven, coming down on Jensen’s tormentors with the wrath of the Almighty, molly-whopping the bunch and dragging Jensen off by the arm, boys cussing and groaning in a puddle behind them.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 5,202; Warning: Underage, Homophobia
Assassin-for-hire Jared finds teenage runaway Jensen on the side of the road and decides to offer him a ride. Jensen doesn’t mind if Jared has blood on his hands.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 6,608; Warning: Underage, Violence
In a world of knights, castles, lords, prophecies and the threat of war between the kingdoms, Jensen the True has lived a remarkably sheltered life. Gifted with the ability to scry truth through touch, Jensen isolated himself from people not only because his “gift” brought him discomfort but because he was used only as a weapon by the current lord. Jensen’s world is turned upside down when a young knight named Jared comes to Greenbriar Manor and changes everything.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 47,200; Warning: None
The boys enjoy attending the Austin City Limits Music Festival. After they enjoy the music followed by whiskey and barbecue, Jared enjoys the smell of sun on Jensen’s skin…
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 2,861; Warning: None
Chicago Homicide Detectives run themselves all over the city to tie together a handful of bodies, a potential scandal with a local Alderman, an unnamed dirty cop, and a possibly even dirtier partner. In Chicago, it’s not just the wind that’ll get you …
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 64,944; Warning: Violence
Life on the streets had taught Jensen that everything came with a price. Family was a word that meant the people who kicked you out, religion was nothing more than a free meal, and salvation something that he could buy for ten bucks a hit down on the bad side of town. Scoring had become his full-time job, and finding a safe place to sleep was what he did in his time off. It was only a matter of time until this life caught up with him. Now, strung out and with no where else to go, Jensen finds himself following his feet to a place he never thought he would go–to the home of a stranger who can unfailingly see past Jensen’s mistakes, and who can see right through to the good that is still left within him. The challenge is getting Jensen to see it as well.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 33,520; Warning: Drug Abuse
Jared is a makeup artist and is hired for a new movie based in Vancouver. Jensen plays the part of a hardcore, punk-rock star, but he has a real-life attitude problem. Unfortunately, Jared can’t figure out why and still finds Jensen attractive. They have to work alone together; long hours and long days, in small quarters of the makeup trailer. During that time, Jared discovers the actor’s secret and wants nothing more than to break away the protective mask Jensen hides behind.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 36,370; Warning: None
Jared Padalecki has dreamed of taking to the skies since he was five-years-old. When he becomes an adult and builds a spaceship of his own, he gets to do just that, looking for adventure – little did he know the adventure waiting for him. Jensen Ackles is born part human, part Terryn and his life as an outcast is difficult – music is his only real escape. When he’s captured by the Dominion, an organization hell-bent on taking over every galaxy in every way they can, he’s used as a lab experiment to see how his special, combined heritage can be advantageous for them. Fleeing Dominion control, he vows to himself, they will never find him again. A chance meeting between Jared and Jensen helps both of them get what they’re looking for – and the way things end up, it may have been more than just chance. From various planets throughout different galaxies, to nights under the stars in space, Jared and Jensen find in each other something worth fighting – and possibly dying – for.
Rating: Explicit; Word Count: 39,813; Warning: None
Jared’s the best used car salesman in his small Texas town. Jensen’s the surly mechanic who manages the shop at the dealership. It takes some time, but Jared brings him around.
Yesss, you’ve come to the right place! Are you sure you wouldn’t like some lighter reading material? Don’t come back crying when you drown in all the Sam feels! 😉
Into the World Breathes Life by checkthemargins Warnings: sex, language, mass angst, implied non-con (Lucifer/Sam), suicidal ideation (Dean), crazy!Sam, spoilers for 7.13 and 7.14. Summary: It’s dangerous, being happy, waiting for it all to slip away. Words: 23,538
Trading Yesterdays by ilovethemoose Summary: Set after the beginning of Season 7. Sam’s wall is broken and he’s hurting. Together Sam and Dean try to deal with the aftermath. Oh, and there’s lots of showering. Words:10,608
Recall by de_nugis Warnings: self-harm, hints of suicidal ideation, spoilers through 7.10 Summary: Sam’s having a hard time telling what’s real and what isn’t, especially when it comes to some voicemails from Dean. Words: 6,300
Mine by morganaDW (morgana07) Warnings: *Upset/limp/depressed/suicidal!Sam & Worried/angsty/big brother!Dean* Set in S7 between 07×15-Repo Man and 07×17 The Born Again Identity. 1st time Wincest. Summary: Fighting exhaustion, guilt, worry and hallucinations of Lucifer, Sam finally has enough one night and is driven to the breaking point. When Dean finds him, it’s not only the shock of what was happening that hits him but also a secret that Sam’s kept that forces him to either face one of his own or lose his brother for good. Words: 13,066
Sleeping With Ghosts by cherry916 Warnings: remembering of non-con, hell memories, wincest, cursing/language Summary: How can Sam ever hope to dig through the void and find out what’s real? Is such a thing, even possible and if so does he even deserve to know the truth? Despite his dark thoughts, and Lucifer screaming in his ear one thing always remains the same: Dean. Maybe that is all he really needs. Word Count: 3,730
Under Sufferance by veronamay Summary: Besides other things, Lucifer touch-starves Sam in Hell as punishment (Sam did fall in the Pit with his entire body and all…). Once out, Sam cannot bring himself to ask Dean despite how badly he needs it. Dean needs to realize what Sam’s problem is, and how to get himself to help, since constant touching doesn’t exactly come naturally to him. Words: 3,933
The Abyss Looks Back by Regala Electra Summary: Sam lets go because he has to have faith in Dean since there’s not much else out there left for them to hope for. He can’t quite close his eyes either, as the shadows are there too, waiting for him. Words: 2,552
And one gen fic because cuddling:
Follow Your Voice Home by authoressnebula Summary: Dizzy/disoriented/hallucinating Sam falls in the shower. He is hurt: cue massive amounts of comfort, Winchester-style. Preferably with lots of cuddling. Words: 2,011
maybe afraid of the voice inside: “I can’t do this without you.” Dean grins, a sliver of cockiness and all around taunting. “Yes, you can.” “Well, yeah. I don’t want to.”
Something So Real Doesn’t Disappear: After a month of not talking to each other, Sam and Dean start spending time together again – until Sam asks Dean to come to the office party with him.
Hidden, Rosy, and Wet: Dean Smith goes in to work one day with an extra article on his person.
A Not So Terrible Life: Dean Smith and Sam Wesson give into the sexual tension. Sam and Dean have to deal with it after.
Lotion and Lube: Dean Smith doesn’t know what Sam was expecting. (dirty shaving!kink porn)
It’s a terrible aftermath: Sam Wesson and Dean Smith were more than just drawn to one another & when Sam and Dean return to their normal lives, they have to deal with the repercussions of that.
Trade It In: Dean and Sam realize that this life just isn’t the right one for either of them.
You and Me [Plus Or Minus a Few]: Most of being Dean Smith sucked, but there are some parts that are definitely worth revisiting. Like being Sammy’s boss.
That’s When Things Got Out of Control: prompt: Someone slips a roofie into Dean Smith’s drink at the office Christmas party and tries to force sex in a supply closet. (It’s not as angsty as it sounds, it’s more of a character study of the boys)
Bad Cheques: In which Dean needs adrenaline and Sam gives it to him.
Right Where I Belong: “You got anything that’s no-carb?” he asked. Sam kicked him under the table. “We’ll both have burgers,” he told Brenda, and Dean sighed, mentally giving up his detox.
It’s the Jump: Every day, at a random time, a time Dean can never anticipate, the messages start. Emails, texts, sticky notes, oh God, the sticky notes.
Let it go, just like that: The coat closet doesn’t even have a door, and yet Sam Wesson is humping the hell out of Dean Smith at the Sandover company Christmas party.
Abandon All Hope, Ye Who Enter Here: Dean & Sam want to hunt some more ghosts. They go to the experts for some hands-on training, but can they fight the strange attraction between them? Featuring the Ghostfacers.
Kissing ficlet: Takes place after Sam & Dean hunt their first ghost.
Well, It’s a Life: What if the angels had forced Dean to figure out who he was by himself while he was still Dean Smith? Would he choose to go back to being Dean Winchester? And how would the experience change him?
Nothing Half So Pleasant: Dean Smith takes Sam Wesson home to meet his family. Things don’t go as planned. Sweet, funny, and a little heartbreaking.
So, Do You Wanna Have Sex?: “Dean,” he says “m’name is Dean.” “Sam,” he groans, hand gripping at Dean’s short hair “Sam.” “Sammy,” and he can feel Dean grinning against his skin, rough hands pulling his shirt from his pants “s’pretty name.”
White Collar Hell: prompt: Dean didn’t realize it the first day back at work after hunting a succubus, but by the time his mid-week managers meeting rolled around, he knew something was wrong. Dean was able to get an SOS text to Sam just before things went to hell.
The Smart Thing to Do: For a week after Sam quits, Dean goes about his life as normal, but every afternoon around three o’clock when the day starts to drag, Dean…wonders what Sam Wesson is doing now.
Swesson Comment Fic Meme: Lots of ficlets, from Dean catching Sam singing in the shower to phone!sex to desk!sex to chair!sex to, well, lots of different kinds of sex.
Reunion Summary: The hiss of the shower filled the untidy, cluttered room and Sam listened to it carefully, his hands locked together in his lap, shaking slightly, picturing what was happening.
No Sweeping Exits or Offstage Lines Summary: He hates that the years Sam was gone are so hidden from him, hates that he has to get to know his own brother all over again.
Tangled Up In You Summary: It’s been coming for a while now. Sam was just too close to see it.
Second Glance Summary: John is only ever a second glance to his boys, who see each other first, always first, with little room at the edges of their vision for anybody else.
Eurydice Summary: Sam made a different kind of deal.
The Man of Law Summary: Sam is cursed into acting out his most repressed urges. Dean points and laughs and enables, until things get a little too personal.
A Matter of Trust Summary: In which Dean freaks out, and Sam tries to smooth things over.
This is a list of First Time wincest. If you’re as obsessed with this trope as I am this list is the one for you. All of these are Top Dean, ‘cause that’s what I read. Unless I specify otherwise.
Please note that I will not write any warning here, so read the writer’s tags on AO3, and please take some time to leave something nice for the writer.
“I remember the way your soul looked when Death had it in his hand, after he brought you back from, from that, that place. I remember feelin’ jealous that he got to hold you in the palm of his hand like that, remember thinkin’ that’s all I’ve ever wanted to do. Sam, your soul was so bright that it was shinin’ out of his fingers; I had to close my eyes against it. All those hundreds of years of torture, and it was just, just so bright, like a star, like all those stars we used to look up at, and there you were, just. Nothin’ has ever been able to take away that light, Sammy.”
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