Tag: it talks

Just stuff cause I’m sitting in line for the Saturday night concert and I can’t stop thinking about Jared and tomorrow and I jut need to do something (on mobile can’t put a read more sorry fam)
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Okay fuck so like Jared just means so much to me?? And I don’t have like an incredible story like he save me, because honestly that was my best friends doing. But like he definitely helped. I just. I don’t know how to properly explain it like I just im sitting here with this weight in my chest that I’ve never felt at a con before. Like nervous and anticipation and just the overwhelming need for this time to be ~special~ and ~amazing~ because there’s this little part of my brain that is telling me I deserve more than anyone else here, that somehow I’m a bigger fan, that somehow my journey and my relationship and inspiration that comes from Jared is more than others. And it’s not true and I don’t know what to do because tomorrow is gonna be special no matter what happens but I’m terrified of being disappointed by the end of the day because an entire year and a few months have been leading up to this and this is what I have been waiting for since we got here on Wednesday and I know it’s gone be over so fast and I just. Need to do something. I wish I could to Jared and have a real conversation with him and Idk he means a lot to me and I’m having trouble comprehending the fact that my life is real and I’m gonna meet him again and this is so long idk what I’m trying to sorryyy

Hi friends!! As I’m heading to chicon (!!!!) I just wanted to let y’all know that the next few days will pretty much only be stuff from the con (unless there’s no wifi) so if you don’t wanna see stuff about my adventures, you can block the tag “Lauren goes to chicon”

For everyone else, I hope I don’t annoy you too much bc I’ll probably be on here a lot freaking out🙈

I leave for chicon tomorrow and I have nooo idea what I’m gonna have j2 sign YIKES

I wanna have Jared sign my photo op from dccon last year but then idk what I’d have jensne sign:( cause I kinda wanted to have something with both of their signatures on it sooo somebody help me pls😩

Sooo I only just told me dad that I was going to another SPN convention and he was kinda pissed about it (which is why I hadn’t told him yet lmao) but oh 🐋 because only two more weeks!!! Do I have anything figured out?? No !! But whatever! I’m too excited

Just wanted to update y’all again!! I have been terribly inconsistent with how much I’ve been on here lately lol, basically not at all (or posting a million things in 10 min). I just wanted to say I’m not leaving, I’m not going anywhere or going on hiatus or anything. I’ve been busier than I realized and just haven’t had as much time. Hoping y’all understand 💙