In seasons one though (most of) season 5, Dean, out of fear (and probably an ingrained tendency to expect the worst case scenario), could not cling to faith that Sam was not evil and could make choices that would affect his own destiny.
Sam was not, in fact, evil, and always had the ability to take his own fate his his hands and the love for and faith in people that has made him such an amazing character. But there wasn’t another Sam to mediate for him, so the brothers had to struggle for each bit of insight.
It’s so heartbreaking and hopeful and lovely to see Sam tentatively stepping in with hope for another person with an evil birthright, and it’s humbling to see how things could have been—would have been—if things had been different.
I’ve said this a million times, but… if Sam had a Sam to fight for him, things would have been so much different.
Holy FKHASLKJ THIS EPISODE GIVES ME LIFE Sam just actually talked about his feelings about Mary and his grief about never having a relationship with her and his sadness that Dean was always the one she turned to. Sam just actually gave vent to some emotions for the first time in 84 years. Someone hold me.
So we’re waiting in line at the Paley Festival, and I’m coming out of the men’s room (which is a rather hard-to-spot door) and there’s this high-pitched shrieking coming from my right beyond the ropes, so I’m turning left and looking right, and walk right into a guy who’s looking to his left, and our belt buckles clink, and there’s a potted plant on one side and a wall of security guards on the other (with their backs to us) so nowhere to go and I see this poor guy looking quite unhappy (the wrinkled forehead, the tightness around the eyes, not breathing) and I think ‘Hm, Ackles is six foot exactly, so there’ because we’re exactly the same height and he’s got this miserable expression that says ‘please don’t be a freak please don’t be a freak’ and I step into the potted plant to let him past, and he nods in thanks, but security is in ‘protect the Pretty’ mode and now he can’t get past them either, (I scared them, coming out of nowhere) and his eyes are darting around and the shrieking (you know who you are, DeanGirls) was causing little birds to fall dead from the trees for blocks around and he was looking more uncomfortable and then (this is the part you’ll think I’m inventing but hand on my heart) he suddenly exhaled, and the tension around his eyes relaxed a bit, so evident that I turned to see what had caused this. About thirty feet ahead was the photography backdrop area, lights and cameras and fans and reporters and Jared and he slid between me and the guards and Padalecki had a microphone in his face, and smiling at the reporter, but his eyes were on Ackles coming towards him.
#GiveSamaVoice is about one thing and one thing only: respectfully asking the writers and creators to understand that Sam deserves to respond emotionally to his abuse and the story itself, because Supernatural is fiction, but stories are more than flights of fancy and words on a page. They change things and shape things.
#GiveSamaVoice is about asking the show to respect abuse survivors and their right to speak out. I happen to enjoy Castiel and think he matters. Some people who use the hashtag don’t like him. Some like Sam and Dean, some only Sam. Some support other characters or pairings but are baffled by the treatment of Sam. Many of us are abuse survivors or people affected profoundly by emotional, sexual, or physical abuse.
Reducing the whole of us to a flimsy caricature doesn’t erase the truth. Sure, the people who care about this are individuals with their own preferences, but the preferences of the individual do not carry over to the goals of the whole. (For example, I’d love if the bunker was filled with puppies and Sam and Cas chilled out and made flower crowns, but not everyone here shares that dream. Some hate it. That’s okay.)
We are not asking for the Sam Winchester show. We are not asking for the Sam and Dean Show.
We’re certainly not banding together as a group to…what? ask them to kill Cas or Dean or anyone else?
We’re asking for a one-second shot (Chuck forbid we ask for two seconds, or two shots—or, dear God, more than that) dedicated to showing unambiguously that Sam might actually be affected by the presence of the man who tortured him for lifetimes in the Cage, tried to severely hurt or kill him twice this season, and spent the whole first half of the season giving Sam visions of his torture.
We just want them to #givesamavoice, because our voices don’t go far alone, but, united, we have just a smidgen more than a snowball’s chance in Hell of reaching someone.
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