I was tagged by the lovely @peggingpadalecki. Thank you!!😘

EDIT(again): I was also tagged by @lovedsammy weeks ago to do this, so thank you!! <3ā˜ŗļø

I am 5’7 or taller | I wear glasses | I have at least one tattoo | I have at least one piercing | I have blonde hair | My abs are somewhat defined | I have or have had braces | I love meeting new people | People tell me I’m funny | Helping people with their problems is a big priority to me | I enjoy physical challenges | I enjoy mental challenges | I’m playfully rude to people I know well | I started to say something ironically, now I can’t stop saying it | There is something I would change about my personality | I can play an instrument | I can sing well | I can do 30 pushups without stopping | I’m a fast runner | I can draw well | I have a good memory | I’m good at doing math in my head | I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute | I have beaten at least two people in an arm wrestle | I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch| I can throw a punch | I enjoy sports | I have learned a new song in the past week | I’ve gone running at least one week in the summer | I work out at least once a week | I have drawn something in the last month | I enjoy writing | I have done martial arts | I have had my first kiss | I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting | I have had alcohol | I have scored a winning goal in sports | I have been to an overnight event | I have been in a taxi | I have been in hospital/er in the past year | I have beaten a video game in one day | I have visited another country | I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts | I have at least one person I consider a best friend

EDIT: to add i was tagged by @waitingforthesongĀ AND @nursedean a little while ago for the second half of this (and took terribly long to actually do it whops). Thanks guys!!Ā šŸ’™

name: Lauren

nickname: occasionally gilbs, comes from my last name but only my barn friends use it

gender: female

star sign: gemini

height: 5′9

hogwarts house: ravenclaw!

favourite animal: Horses. or dogs. or maybe giraffes. One of those three lol

average hours of sleep: 6? sounds about right

dogs or cats: both i can’t choose I have a dog and cats and I wouldn’t wnt one or the other

dream trip: Italy, i wanna go see the museums and the art and the history and explore little towns and the beaches.Ā 

dream job: Something to do with horses, still trying to figure out exactly what. Used to be a veterinarian but now idk

when i made my blog: 2013 i think, it was around the time season 8 of supernatural was airing, i think I made it closer to the end of season 8.

followers: 925, i’ve been stuck in the 920s for a while! hoping to get to 1k by the end of the year??

why i made a tumblr: I had just binge watched 7 seasons of SPN and was starting to watch interviews and such, so I wanted to get to know more fans. And have an outlet for my obsession

reason for my url: Boyking!sam is my weakness

favorite musician/band: Don’t have an all time favorite, but I’d love to see Imagine Dragons or Of Monsters and Men in concert

tattoos: None currently, but hopefully getting my first in a month or two!! #AKF

favorite emoji:Ā šŸ™ƒ Ā I use this one a lot lol

THANK YOU ALL OF THE LOVELY AMAZING PEOPLE WHO TAGGED ME TO DO THIS. Sorry I took forever, love yall!

Not tagging anyone specific, but if anyone sees this and wants to do it go ahead and say I tagged you!😊

J2 NolaCon 2017 Main Panel

sammyhale:

  • J2 jump onstage!
  • Jensen moving the chairs closer together before the panel even starts šŸ™‚
  • Jensen doing the Who Dat song for the New Orleans Saints.Ā 
  • Jared says the city killed his phone:Ā ā€œI’m trying to navigate to where Jensen is and it won’t work. Saw a lot of the city!ā€ Referring to his adventures last night walking around NOLA.Ā 
  • He was wandering around Bourbon Street trying to get cell service:Ā ā€œSearching…my buddy had already left and gone to the hotel.ā€Ā 
  • Jared stopped at a bar for WiFi and someone told him,Ā ā€œOh, so you’re dressed up as Sam Winchester from Supernaturalā€ and they weren’t impressed when they found out he was the real deal.Ā ā€œSo, you dress like him, too?ā€Ā 
  • Since Jared’s phone died on him he got to rediscover what it’s like to walk around a new city without any phone gadgets.Ā 
  • Jared says there’s gonna be Alex in the gag reel, and s13′s reel might be really long.Ā 
  • J2 hopes that Alex will come to conventions soon!
  • Jared saysĀ ā€œhazingā€ and Jensen saysĀ ā€œwelcome packageā€ on the breaking-in of Alex.Ā 
  • Jensen on Alex: It’s the first time they had to wrap me and him (Jared) first so the other person could work lol.Ā 
  • J2 to Alex, who was worried about laughing in so many takes:Ā ā€œIt’s okay, all your bosses know we’re assholes.ā€Ā 
  • Question about lead roles. Jared: You mean Sam or Dean? You said lead roles.Ā 
  • Jared jokes Misha has the best job in showbiz because he barely works and people think he’s a lead. If he could play anyone else it’d be Cas.Ā 
  • Lead supporting roles? Jensen: I hear those come in briefs, also.Ā 
  • Jensen jokes about Misha’s presence in the black room at the end of 13×03.Ā Ā 
  • Jensen, referring to the end of 13×03, says: Misha filmed that last scene in his bedroom. Jared: They took out all the toys…VFX’d away all the toys. Jensen walks away laughing.Ā 
  • Jensen would be a wendigoĀ ā€˜cause he’d be taller than Jared šŸ˜›
  • Jared jokes that he wants to be a shapeshifter so someone else can play their characters but still get paid.Ā 
  • Jared: I’d be a shapeshifter. Oh no, I shift myself… ba dum dum. Jensen tried so hard not to laugh. Couldn’t do it. Instead:Ā ā€œyou shifted yourself AGAIN.ā€Ā 
  • Jensen: Dean is in a turbulent state, lots of anger that’s a stage of grieving. You’ll see a transition in Dean about Jack, between now and ep 10.Ā 
  • In s2 when Jensen saw the script saying he had to take a crowbar to the Impala he was like nooo.Ā 
  • Jensen talks about taking things apart with his hands. J2 are now miming correcting a picture on the wall.Ā 
  • During a scene there was a painting that had to be crooked for continuity and Jensen threw something in the scene and it swung into place lol.Ā 
  • Jared: How funny would it have been if instead you just stopped and casually fixed it?Ā 
  • Trick to emotional scenes? Jared doesn’t lie while acting, he just tells someone else’s truth.Ā 
  • Jared: I love Sam! His hair is so great! Jensen: You say his hair is so gray? *makes face behind him* Jared: Dude I can see you! Jensen feigns innocence.Ā 
  • Jared: I don’t like the wordĀ ā€œtricksā€ when talking about being emotional. Jensen: I like to use tricks.Ā 
  • Jensen: We’ve lived with these characters for so long that we naturally get emotional and no longer have to delve into our own emotions.Ā 
  • Jensen is answering for Jared about how they get prepared and into the character’s heads for emotional scenes.Ā 
  • ā€œI love these characters…so if they’re going through something, I feel that.Ā ā€œ
  • Jensen whisperedĀ ā€œinstinctualā€ right before Jared did.Ā 
  • Jensen talks about how Jared reads script over and over whereas he goes into it more visceral and Jared builds on Jensen’s answer, links to Sam’s tendency toward research versus Dean being more reactive.Ā 
  • J2 talking about Kim Manners. Jared:Ā ā€œHe set the tone.ā€ He wanted to make sure they had fun making the show.Ā 
  • Jensen could talk for a week about how amazing Kim Manners was.Ā 
  • Jensen about KM:Ā ā€œHe put us on a path to succeed and we’ve been honoring him ever since.ā€
  • Jared: Kim truly cared about people.Ā 
  • Jared goes wide-eyed when a baby screams in the audience.Ā 
  • Jensen is excited about Stranger Things.Ā 
  • Therapy question. Jared to a fellow parent: We also take our kids to a therapist because of our situation. Daddy isn’t around a lot. They want to help the kids understand why he’s not around so much.Ā 
  • Gen and Jared go to counseling to learn how to parent the best they can especially with Jared not being around often.Ā 
  • Jensen says acceptance is one of the biggest things we’re teaching in his home. Wants to teach his kids that they are loved and they give love.Ā 
  • Fan. Hi I’m (name) from (St) Jared: Why did you have to read your name off your phone lol?Ā 
  • J2 are fighting again about gif vs jif lol. Jensen: Jif is peanut butter! Gif is on your phone.Ā 
  • Jared says single best part of being a celebrity is sending gifs of yourself to non celebrities. Jensen agrees. He loves text battling their friends with SPN gifs šŸ˜› Jared’s fav gif of himself is the L’Oreal ones. Has sent it to everyone he knows lol.
  • Jensen: There are a lot of Supernatural gifs. I was like, hey, Jared, we’re popular…
  • Jared deferring to gif because Jensen said so. Jensen: Jared can be taught.Ā 
  • Fan: First of all I wanna know if you have any single friends? Jensen walks over and points at Stephen .Ā 
  • Do you like classic rock? Jensen: I like Big Butts. Jared: He does.Ā 
  • Jensen: I named my kid Zeppelin.Ā 
  • They’ve been trying to get Metallica on the show since day one. Finally got them this season.Ā 
  • Jared: I have put everything I have into Sam. Jensen: makes a surprised/smirky face šŸ˜‰ Jensen laughs and Jared whispers something, Jensen laughs again.Ā 
  • Sam has taught Jared a lot, including how he perseveres.Ā 
  • Jared used the word indubitably while answering. Jensen: Did you just say indubitably? We talked about this, you’re embarrassing me.Ā 
  • Jensen says there was more of a connection between he and Dean in the beginning seasons but now there’s a separation. Jensen: Sometimes I say, what would Dean do?Ā 
  • Jared: Sam’s current position on Jack is how he feels about himself. Sam wants to believe he can be good. So he needs Jack to be good.Ā 
  • Jensen talks about directing and how Bob Singer doesn’t need a bunch of notes like Jensen. While Jensen had a complete road map, Singer just had one note, ā€œthe ole switcherooā€ to remind him of how he wanted a scene to go lol.Ā 
  • Jared mentions Will and Grace. Jensen: Who will you be in this scenario?Ā 
  • If there was an SPN movie, Jared wouldn’t want to use foul language. Jensen: *horrified face* Jared: I know words longer than four letters šŸ˜›
  • Fan asks a question about what filming was like for Jensen and Sam Smith when Mary saw Baby for the first time. Jensen is confused, thinking Sam the character. Jensen: The scene took on a different tone in shooting than it had in the script. Jared: for Dean or Jensen?Ā 
  • Last question: The scene where Dean sees Mary remembering what happened in Baby wasn’t scripted. That was Bob Singer.Ā 
  • J2 thank the fans and give a fist bump before heading off stage šŸ™‚

Info via: Fangasm, Cherie, Eileen, Lullys,Ā Sil’s livetweet list

Tagged by the wonderfulĀ @thewinchestersgrimm šŸ™‚ ā¤

1. nicknames – Gilbs, occosionally. And sometimes giraffe (that one was supplied by myself though lol)

2. gender – female

3. star sign – Gemini

4. height – 5′9″

5. time – 8:01 pm

6. birthday – in June

7. favorite bands? – Imagine Dragons, Pentatonix, Of Monsters and Men, Oh Wonder

8. favorite solo artists? – Luke Bryan, Maren Morris, Jon Bellion,Ā 

9. song stuck in my head? – Boys and Buses from the Nashville soundtrack

10. last movie you watched? – Beauty and the Beast! the new one which they just put on Netflix and im obsessed again

11. last show you watched? – Nashville

12. when did you create your blog? – I’m pretty sure it was 2013?Ā 

13. what do i post? – Literally all SPN all the time, 90% of which is Jared/Sam

14. last thing i googled? – my bus route

15. do you have any other blogs? – I have several side blogs for my other tv shows (i hardly post on them though), one for a band (i used to be really active on it but i’m not anymore) and then an aesthetic sideblog, which is mainly just stuff i thought looked pretty, quotes, etc. I’ve been meaning to get a photography blog started for a while now but havent done it.

16. do you get asks? – very rarely

17. why did you choose your url? – cause i loove boyking!samĀ 

18. following? – 380

19. followers? – 929

20. favorite colors? – turqouise and purple

21. average hours of sleep? – like 6? ish

22. lucky number? – 13

23. instruments? – I used to play the flute, and i used to love it but then i was in my high school band and they were kind of really serious and i was not about it

24. what am i wearing? – leggings and TWLOA tank top šŸ™‚

25. how many blankets do you sleep with? – Just one fuzzy one

26. dream job? – no idea. Really. Is there a job where i can get paid with just petting dogs? or horses. That would be it

27. dream trip? – Going to Italy and exploring the cities and seeing the ruins and going to museums to see the artwork

28. favorite fruit? – green apples or wild raspberriesĀ 

29. nationality? – American

30. favorite song right now? – Waking up the Giants by Gizfolk

I’m tagging @mjolnirsammy @heavenlysams and @brothersloverssoulmates ! But if anyone else wants to do this just say i tagged youĀ 

His eyes are always on me. Desperately wanting – J2 Rec List

angelshawke:

♄ – my absolutely favourites.

  • ♄ The Lake House – NC-17 – Word Count: ~27,000Based on the movie ā€œThe Lake Houseā€. Jared is a doctor working in Chicago, moving out of the Lake House, built with glass. Jensen is an architect and a new owner of the Lake House. They start talking through the letters they put in the lake house’s mailbox. Soon, they discover that the distance between them is measured in time rather than miles.
  • ♄♄ Beholder – NC-17 – Word Count: ~80,000Jared was passionate about the work he did with the animal shelter. Between that and living with Sandy, life was satisfactory. Until the cold night that the filthy, homeless man hidden in an oversized hoodie was dumped at the shelter and Jared couldn’t just turn him out. Even if the man roared and called himself ā€˜Beast.’ Because under the hood, Jared was sure he caught a glimpse of a prince in those green eyes.
  • Change Your Name and Come Seek Me – NC-17 – Word Count: ~37,500Sometimes, you have to die in order be with the one you love. Jared Padalecki is just your average guy next door, except for his ability to bring people back to life after successfully preventing their death. When he meets Jensen, all he wants is to live a ordinary life. Only, Jensen has a secret of his own, and soon, Jared’s life becomes even more complicated.
  • Empty Room – NC-17 – Word Count: 45,666Jared’s life felt like it was slowly falling into pieces, slipping right through his fingers and he didn’t even know why.What he did know was that there had to be a reason why he would always find his dogs scratching at the door to the empty room in his house. Why he would hesitate so many times before driving off to set simply because it felt wrong somehow to go alone. Why he would dream of this one guy he’d never met, but who, in his dreams, felt like a man he had spent a lifetime with. Why he couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something, someone, he’d forgotten.
  • ♄ Wedded Blitz – NC-17 – Word Count: 33,000 Movie Prompt: The Hangover. Fiction, not fact, except for the parts that are true. The words belong to me, but not the songs, nor the images contained within, and certainly not the boys. Boo. Also, no animals were harmed in the writing of this fic.
  • ♄ Win-Win Situation – NC-17 – Word Count: 11,700The (plot device) made us do it! The boys have to make out on camera.
  • The Play Nice Proviso – NC-17 – Word Count: ~70,000When Jensen Ackles first met Jared Padalecki, it was most definitely not love at first sight. It wasn’t even like at first sight. In fact, Jensen hated him, and he had a few good reasons as to why. So what if his new co-star was oblivious to his one-sided warfare? Jensen could deal. Apart from when he couldn’t.
  • Here For The Moment – NC-17 – Word Count: 34,751 When Jensen crashes into Jared’s life, quite literally, Jared is only too happy to go along for the ride. What starts as a happy twist of fate leads into something more, and Jared soon realizes his feelings for Jensen are only getting stronger with time. But Jensen is caught up in a past that Jared can’t be a part of, and being happy in love ends up being more complicated than Jared thought.
  • Spin The Light To Gold – NC-17 – Word Count: 52,000It’s Jared’s first summer as a junior counselor at an idyllic summer camp, and he’s looking forward to as much sun and fun as he can handle.Ā  But things don’t turn out exactly as he plans, and his summer takes an interesting turn when he finds himself falling for a hot older counselor.Ā  Featuring Chad, crafts, hordes of kids, and all the summer camp cliches imaginable.
  • Incriminating Evidence – NC-17 – Word count: ~34,000Roommates!fic. Jared’s not really a nosy guy except for the times when he is.
  • ♄ The Courtship of Jensen’s Co-Star NC-17 – Word count: 112K+ –Ā  Somewhere in the time between a handshake and a hug, Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki went from being reel-life brothers to real-life best friends, and complete strangers to cosmic soul mates, no rhyme or reason to it that either of them could ever see. Jared was everything Jensen was not: friendly, funny, and full of life; one in six-point-whatever billion the Earth’s population currently stood at. Life was awesome. Work was amazing. Everything was fine until Jared kissed Jensen. Everything was peachy until Jensen fell in love.
  • Thespis – NC-17 – Word Count: 36,141Jared is a makeup artist and is hired for a new movie based in Vancouver. Jensen plays the part of a hardcore, punk-rock star, but he has a real-life attitude problem. Unfortunately, Jared can’t figure out why and still finds Jensen attractive.
  • The Lie That Keeps You Warm – NC-17 – Word Count: 72,977Jensen is a Hollywood actor who’s quickly fading out of the spotlight. To create a new buzz, his agent suggests a double whammy tabloid shocker; Jensen Ackles is getting married… to a guy. But of all the people his agent picks to be his ā€œgroom-to-beā€, Jensen didn’t expect it to be Jared Padalecki, the once dorky kid he used to bully in high school.
  • So I Called Chad – NC-17? – Word Count: ~30,000 – Jensen has a car accident, but Jared’s the one who gets hurt.
  • ♄ Royally Complicated – NC-17 – Word Count: 52,200Jensen’s completely sick of his completely dull life; despite a great apartment, a job he loves, and well-intentioned friends who want nothing but the best for him, he’s bored out of his skull. When those well-intentioned friends drunkenly book him a trip to beautiful and exotic Los Roques, Venezuela, Jensen figures he’ll make the best of it, and if that happens to include a fling with a handsome and mysterious stranger he never expects to see again, so much the better.
  • I’d Rather Fight With You – NC-17 – Word Count: 58,000+When Jared decided to spend his summer working at a camp, he was expecting it to be easy. But Head Counselor, Jensen, seems to have a personal grudge against him, and Jared doesn’t know what he did wrong.
  • Sunscreen – NC-17 – Word Count: ~4,000 – Jensen really likes Jared’s feet.Ā  0% kink/fetish and 100% schmoopy porn cliches.
  • Tell Me You Love Me – NC-17 – Word Count: 9,600Jared has loved his brother Jeff’s best friend Jensen for as long as he can remember, but when Jensen turns him down on his 23rd birthday, Jared flees to Corfu in an attempt to get laid and get on with his life – as far away from Jensen as he can get. But Jensen seems to have other ideas…
  • Absolute Beginners – NC-17 – Word Count: ~30,000Jared Padalecki is 27 when he realizes he has fallen in love for the first time… with his best friend. But Jensen’s not gay, right? Right?!?
  • Melting Under Blue Skies – R/NC-17 – Word Count: 23,733College!AU. In which Jensen tries hard not to fall for Jared, and is generally sort of an idiot, and Jared hugs a lot.
  • Blame It On Gravity – NC-17 – Word Count: 16,300 In which Jensen’s friends are assholes, and Jensen falls for Jared. Literally.
  • All Through The Town – NC-17 – Word Count: 7,300Jared and Jensen ride the same bus every morning.
  • This Course We Plotted – NC-17 – Word Count: ~38,000Jared Padalecki has a life he loves: friends, family, a good job and plans to make it as a writer someday. All that is shaken up when he meets Detective Jensen Ackles one night, while working an overtime shift.
  • Can’t Read My Poker Face – PG-13 – Word Count: 2,334Misha plays dirty, Jensen’s pretty and Jared’s confused and stuck in between…
  • The Discovery of Jensen Padalecki – R – Word Count: 3,742Jensen Ackles was a prankster extraordinaire. Nay, he was the king of all pranksters. So when Eric Kripke decided it was time for payback, Jensen had to resort to desperate measures to come out on top. He was just a little clueless as to how this suddenly involved misusing what he’s learnt from the Discovery Channel and kissing Jared Padalecki.
  • Thirty-Three And Counting – R – Word Count: 1,550ā€˜When he was a day old, before his parents had even decided between ā€˜Justin’ and ā€˜Jensen’, according to Donna Ackles anyway, his big brother Josh took one look at him, frowned, and stated, ā€œHe’s ugly, Momma. Give him back to the stork and get another baby. Or at least get your money back.ā€ā€™
  • ♄ Just One Breath – NC-17 – Word Count: 56,000Following a horrific event during filming, Jensen’s life hangs in the balance and Jared discovers what is truly important.
  • Eat Drink Love – NC-17 – Word Count: 8,600Cynical waiter Jensen serves Serial Dater Jared’s row of first dates.
  • If You Let Me Fall (Let Me Break) – NC-17 – Word Count – 20,160As a wedding dress designer, Jensen Ackles believes in fairy tale endings. Except maybe for himself. And now Jared Padalecki has walked back into his life, and Jensen is supposed to give him his happy ending. Even if it means Jensen might never get his own.
  • ♄ The Fanboy Complex – NC-17 – Word Count: ~9,400For the last five years Jensen has been a fan of the show Supernatural so when he gets the chance to go to a convention he jumps on the opportunity. What happens there is more than he could ever dream of. (age reversal – Jared is 30, Jensen is 15)
  • Sticks and Stones – NC-17 – Word Count: 22,000SO! Who wants 22,000 words of J2 hurt/comfort fic filled with sex and schmoop and Jensen playing with Jared’s dogs!
  • Beautiful Disaster – NC-17 – Word Count: 96,941Rock Band AU. Jensen’s the lead guitarist in the number one rock band in the country. Justin’s the lead singer, and they’ve been doing this together since middle-school, been together since just after high school. As on top of the world as they are, Jensen’s starting to become disillusioned with the lifestyle and his crumbling relationship with Justin. And then he meets a new roadie on the crew named Jared who’s got a voice like an angel and a heart to match, and everything starts to change.
  • A Slow Process Of Understanding – NC-17 – Word Count: 94,300It’s a world like this one except for the all-powerful State that’s very firmly in control and, oh, the fact that slavery is legal. Jared had never really thought about it, or the fight for freedom going on around him, he was too busy enjoying his privileged life as an actor on a sci-fi show.
  • ♄♄ As this sunset turns to morning – NC-17 – Word Count: ~86,000Jensen spends his life hiding who he is from the family that would never accept him if they knew. When he’s uprooted in the middle of his senior year and suddenly becomes the new kid, his carefully placed mask begins to slip. Especially when he meets Jared – a loud, outspoken spectacle of a boy that fights for everything Jensen was taught to stand against. Jared has no problem going after what he wants, and now it’s just a matter of Jensen letting himself do the same.
  • ♄ Who Watches Over Me? – NC-17 – Word Count: 96,700
    Jensen Ackles is an ex-Navy SEAL turned civilian bodyguard with a mysterious past. Jared Padalecki is a flamboyant Hollywood star known for his action movies who’s been receiving death threats. The case sounds like Jensen’s idea of a nightmare, and he takes it on against his better judgment.
  • ♄ Small Small World – NC-17 – Word Count: 34,570 – Jensen Ackles has got the dream job of a former comic book fanboy: the creator of his very own series Small Small World which stars the man who would be perfect for Jensen if only he were real. Little does Jensen know that his world is about to get a whole lot smaller.
  • Stand On Your Own Head (For A Change) – NC-17 – Word Count: ~30,000Jared’s a transportation engineer who’s just trying to get the job done. Jensen’s a community activist who’s trying to keep his neighborhood intact. When they go head-to-head on the same project, sparks fly—of all kinds.
  • Tailgates Down In The Parking Lot – NC-17 – Word Count: 24,800
    Jared likes his life in Miami: the partying, the fighting, the girls – it’s his big fuck you to Dad and step-mom number two. Only now he’s being shipped off for bad behavior to small town Tennessee and a summer with the woman who abandoned him. Jared has zero interest in getting to know his mom or the tired, two stoplight town he’s stuck in. Seventeen and not a care in the world, he’s not expecting the life that’s waiting for him: endless days at the pond, laying out in the park and those nights pulled up in fields with the radio up high. He’s definitely not expecting to meet Jensen, his mom’s handyman neighbor and maybe just the thing Jared’s been waiting for.
  • Open Heart Dentistry – NC-17 – Word Count: 25,000When closeted army dentist Jensen Ackles returns home to fill in for his sick father, he has a bad start due to his lacking bedside manner and overall misanthropic attitude. Sexy new patient Jared Padalecki looks like a wet dream come true to Jensen – until he finds out Jared’s a whiny assed crybaby. (Or, as hippie nurse!Misha calls it: a patient suffering from extreme dental anxiety). Their mutual sexual attraction is strong but will they manage to get over their differences?
  • Struts and Frets – NC-17 – Word Count: ~23,000 Jared finally has a pilot that’s been picked up, and it’s worlds away from Gilmore Girls. Trouble is, the guy playing Dean is a complete douchebag. Then Jared bumps into Jensen, who he swears was made for the role.
  • ♄ In A Mirror Distorted and Indistinct – NC-17 – Word Count: 36,800 They keep calling him beautiful. Pretty. ā€œCome on. Look this way. Give us a smile, Jensen.ā€ He smiles and blinks against the flashes, fighting the urge to lower his eyes, to hide the blush burning under layers of makeup. Sweat runs down his back, his hands tremble.
    He’s not pretty, not beautiful. He’s small and weak and pathetic and one day they’re all gonna figure it out. One day…
  • Instant Pleasure – NC-17 – Word Count: 3,150As a game, Jared and Jensen keep leaving pictures of themselves in each other’s trailers. They get progressively dirtier as time goes on, and eventually, one of them sees a really good pic and goes to take what he wants.
  • But Then My Homework Was Never Quite Like This – NC-17 – Word Count: 85,984AU. Jared’s eighteen and in his senior year at a private school in San Francisco. He’s coasting pretty on his parents generous school donations—until his seventh period Physics teacher gets replaced with the maddening, infuriating, gorgeous Mr. Ackles. Jared’s gotten by all his life on his money and his charm, but Mr. Ackles seems to think he needs some… lessons in self-control. The journey their relationship eventually takes them on turns out to be far more than either of them ever bargained for. Toppy!Teacher!Jensen in glasses and Student!Jared in private school uniform included!
  • Driving Jared Padalecki – R – Word Count: 2,800Jared’s a movie star. He really shouldn’t be having lusty thoughts for his driver. Tell that to his dick.
  • Pick Up Your Crazy Heart (And Give It One More Try) – NC-17 – Word Count: ~59,000Supernatural is easily the best thing that ever happened to Jensen – he’s finally the lead on a TV show, plays a badass demon hunter every day, and works with Jared. Over time, their friendship grows, enough so that they spend most of their free time together and Jensen becomes unofficial co-parent to Jared’s dogs. It works out perfectly, until things get complicated after a random hook-up that leaves Jensen confused and their friendship cracked. Jensen’s never planned on settling down with another person; but when he realizes his feelings for Jared aren’t going to disappear, he starts to wonder if maybe he’s ready to give it a try.
  • Business and Pleasure – NC-17 – Word Count: 28,000Jared’s a philandering CEO and Jensen’s his overworked assistant – that is, until Jared decides he needs to improve his image by having a serious relationship and chooses Jensen to be his fake boyfriend. But Jensen’s a little in love with Jared and Jared has ideas of his own, and pretty soon no one is certain what’s fake and what’s real anymore. Featuring dancing, denial, a lot of inappropriate work behavior, and an infamous office holiday party.
  • Love Is A Funny Thing – NC-17 – Word Count: ~40,000 Everyone knows the story of how Jared and Jensen met and filled Sam and Dean’s shoes. They met in the waiting room and became instant brothers on-screen and best friends behind it. There were bar fights and red carpet fondling, Ritchie Valens and Thomas Kinkade, Christmases together and vacations apart, conventions, the writer’s strike, a broken engagement, a new co-star to love, living together, and then not. But what no one knows is what happened in the space in-between, and how Jared and Jensen had to find themselves, and each other, over six seasons of failed relationships, random hook-ups, and a coat closet confessional.
  • ♄ Open Your Eyes, Open Your Heart – NC-17 – Word Count: ~30,000ā€œTimes where the band was all over the news and the new best thing are long gone. Sure, they are still on the road, still attract a decent crowd but they haven’t a released anything new in close to three years now. About to lose their record deal Jensen is desperately trying to find new ideas. But writing new songs proves to be much more difficult than it used to be. On a chance night he finds inspiration, only for it to turn out to be a washed up casting star seemingly earning his money out on the streets. That’s not really what he had in mind as his new muse. Jared, though, seems determined to stay around.ā€

This weekend was amazing. I met new friends, had even more incredible experiences with Jared and got my favorite photo op in the world. Unfortunately, the very last thing I experienced leaves me heartbroken. While waiting for some friends to get their Jared auto (and having a clear view of him which was great to start), I watched someone tell what must have been a very personal story. Jared came around the table and hugged the crying girl for a long while, got down to her level and spent longer than he needed to speaking with her. I am not sure what she said, and I’m sure it meant a great deal to her, but Jared was not prepared for it. He immediately after went out through the doors behind his table, his handler said he need a breather, and came back a little shakier with red eyes. Make your own assumptions or don’t, that’s not what this is about.

This is about treating these people who you don’t /actually/ know, as close very personal friends. Yes, we are all the SPN family. But family is supposed to have /each other’s backs/. Not just one side. Please please do not just dump your stories on Jared or Jensen. Everyone has stories that would mean a great deal to them if they were able to tell J2, I’m sure. But these conventions are neither the time nor the place. To truly be a family, in my opinion, you have to listen and respect one another. Which not only means others fans, but the actors so many claim to love. Listen to what they are telling you. The stricter rules apparently set forth by Creation?? We’re not just implanted for no reason, they were not last minute decisions, something that came about for no reason. They are because the actors are having a more and more difficult time during these conventions, because some fans just won’t listen. I wish I could say this weekend ended on a high note for me, that I was left with nothing but joy and content. I really do. But I’m not. And I’m not upset for me, I still have all the wonderful and happy memories from this weekend. I’m upset for Jared. Because I was about to start crying seeing what he had to go through, just seeing the look on his face, how he started to go through the remaining autographs a little quicker. It made me feel disappointed. A little disgusted. Please respect the other part to this so called family. Please. I only witnessed what happened, and I feel so much like shit that I can’t even begin to imagine what these actors must go through, hundreds of times over.

I apologize for this getting rather long, I just needed to share my thoughts.

Just stuff cause I’m sitting in line for the Saturday night concert and I can’t stop thinking about Jared and tomorrow and I jut need to do something (on mobile can’t put a read more sorry fam)


Okay fuck so like Jared just means so much to me?? And I don’t have like an incredible story like he save me, because honestly that was my best friends doing. But like he definitely helped. I just. I don’t know how to properly explain it like I just im sitting here with this weight in my chest that I’ve never felt at a con before. Like nervous and anticipation and just the overwhelming need for this time to be ~special~ and ~amazing~ because there’s this little part of my brain that is telling me I deserve more than anyone else here, that somehow I’m a bigger fan, that somehow my journey and my relationship and inspiration that comes from Jared is more than others. And it’s not true and I don’t know what to do because tomorrow is gonna be special no matter what happens but I’m terrified of being disappointed by the end of the day because an entire year and a few months have been leading up to this and this is what I have been waiting for since we got here on Wednesday and I know it’s gone be over so fast and I just. Need to do something. I wish I could to Jared and have a real conversation with him and Idk he means a lot to me and I’m having trouble comprehending the fact that my life is real and I’m gonna meet him again and this is so long idk what I’m trying to sorryyy