“After all we survived, I watched the man I love die.There’s no normal after that.”
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Here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed.
Crossed out.
Clumsy hands in a dark room. Crossed out. There is something
underneath the floorboards.
Crossed out.
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Dean – taking care of Sam |Sam – taking care of Dean|
Sam doesn’t know what leads him to the bathroom while he picks through the ruins of his apartment. There’s almost nothing salvageable left after a demon burned his life to the ground, but something tugs him in that direction and he’s too shell-shocked in its aftermath to try to stop it.
Black ash smeared on white porcelain, a charred hairbrush. It has him feeling ill, and he nearly walks away before a tiny white stick catches his eye and his stomach drops.
He crouches down slowly to pick it out from the debris. It tapers thin at one end and Sam feels like he can’t breathe, wipes soot off its display with numb, shaking fingers.
The tiny plus sign breaks him, and the pregnancy test clatters to the floor, a choked, inhuman noise clawing its way up out of Sam’s throat.
He thinks about the bloodstains on Jessica’s nightgown that could’ve been his child, and he presses his forehead against the floor and screams himself hoarse.
It should’ve been me.
His life has never been fair.
31/365
— the difference between surviving and living | m.a.w
Isn’t this an insight into Sam’s head, though (one wonders how often he’s repeated this little mantra to himself over the past few years) (11×02)
Sam Winchester || Silly boy, you can not save everyone. Some people are going to destroy themselves no matter how much you try to help.
“I was told to find Jesus in a stained glass church, where the light shines red like blood // and the eyes of his children were so bitterly burned that I could not stand to look at them…”
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