Tag: pittcon 2018

The hardest part about the conventions (for me) is the lack of time. To process. To go through everything. One second the con is 9 months away, the next I’m packing to leave for it. The weekend itself is so packed with activities, most of which are surreal and larger than life. And it’s hard to take time to realize what youve gotten to do and experience without feeling like you’re missing something. Especially j2 day. It’s so high energy, there’s always something happening next and something to look forward to. And when it’s over, it’s done so fast. That’s it. It’s hard for my brain to believe I actually experienced what I did, and without the photographic proof I may think that I imagined it all. And then you leave, you say goodbye to friends and leave the magic of the con and head back to “real” life. Back to the normal routine where you get weird looks if you talk about Jared or Jensen for an hour or where people have trouble understanding how a 5 second interaction changed you. Even if it’s not a big change, it’s enough for me that stepping back into where my life used to be feels uncomfortable and not right. I don’t understand how I can just go about my day. Of course as time passes it starts to feel more distant, and my life is the same and I still have the memories and the feelings I had when I made them. But it’s simply just different and strange and as much as I just rambled on it’s really indescribable.