Given the sorts of horrors that the Winchesters encounter on a daily basis, I was a bit surprised that the not-very-gory meat factory in 12×18 was enough to put Sam off his food. But then I remembered this scene from Season 7 – a hallucinatory glimpse at Sam’s time in the Cage – and, yeah. Okay.
Sam reacting to the cut up lizard.
Sam upset about the man being carved up.
Sam dislikes dismembered flesh.
I think it’s no coincidence that these reactions are occurring in seasons where Lucifer or his memory are active.
I think Sam is somewhat suicidal but he’s been to heaven, hell, and purgatory and heaven was a disappointment, hell was the cage, and purgatory was hunting.
He’s got no place to go.
That’s not even mentioning the Empty. You know…the place where he and Dean will probably be forced to end after they die, because of the reapers.
How devastating it must be when anywhere you go turns into inescapable hell? When you know that even taking your own life will not bring you oblivion?
Does Sam even wish for peace after death, or is that hope long gone? Maybe he just wants complete oblivion, to dissapear from existence, but no, the universe (the reapers) can’t give him even that little.
Brings new meaning to the “It ends bad” line, doesn’t it?
Backup bloh 