holdmesamthatwasbeautiful:

Little Sammy is screaming with laughter and he pushes
at his big brother who’s pinning him to the bed, tickling him mercilessly. “Dean,
please stop!” Sam yelps, his cheeks bright red: breathless and bright
eyed.

John watches from the door, smiling.

Little does John know that in ten years he will find
his boys on another bed, in another state. Sam’s cheeks will still be flushed
and he will still be breathless – but this time, Sammy will claw at Dean’s back
and whine: “Dean, please don’t stop.”

And John won’t be smiling.

Summer before Stanford fics? Please

spnlittlebro:

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Oh yeah, no angst and emotional trauma here. Hope a few of these fit what you’re looking for, anon:

These Lies We Cherish by Semira
Pairing: Gen | Rating: PG-13 | Wordcount: 4,999 | Archive: AO3

John responds a little too enthusiastically to Sam’s snark when he uncovers his son’s acceptance letter, and Sam leaves, injured and betrayed. Thankfully, it doesn’t end there. For the prompt: What happened during the Stanford fight and how Dean felt about his brother leaving (and not wanting him to go). Anything about this would be great.

Punching In A Dream by felix-felicius

Pairing: Gen | Rating: PG-13 | Wordcount: 30,326 | Archive: ffnet
After being told he can’t go to Stanford, Sam is found with his wrists slit in an apparent suicide attempt. Only thing is, he doesn’t remember doing it

Only One I Need by zana_zira
Pairing: Gen | Rating: PG-13 | Wordcount: 3,220 | Archive: LJ

John’s never been supportive of Sam’s academics, but even Dean never imagined he’d try to forbid Sam from going to his own graduation. The fallout is bigger than John probably intended, but now that Sam’s made his choice there will be no going back. Ties into Sam’s acceptance to Stanford.


They Then Ate The Sailors by coyotesuspect
Pairing: Wincest | Rating: R | Wordcount: 24,364 | Archive: AO3

The summer before Sam leaves for Stanford, Sam and Dean sublet a student apartment in a heat-wave gripped Chicago. With John tied up with a case in Iowa City, Sam and Dean are left to figure what’s behind a recent spate of drownings. Sam wrestles with the weight of the secret he’s keeping from Dean, while Dean struggles with his feelings for Sam. Things come to a head when a young girl goes missing and Sam nearly drowns. 

falling through by cautionbeware
Pairing: Wincest | Rating: NC17 | Wordcount: 3,400 | Archive: LJ

Sam is seventeen years and one day old when his world rapidly collapses in on itself.

Two-Headed Boy by dollylux (sequel to The Ballad of The Invisible Boy)
Pairing: Wincest | Rating: NC17 | Wordcount: 57,490 | Archive: AO3

Sam’s life from sixteen to twenty-two years old. This is a story of the last days of innocence during a sweltering Southern summer when Sam is so in love with his brother, he can barely stand his touch. It’s the pain between them through lies, through jealousy, through seeing each other with someone else. Theirs is a story of leaving and Stanford, of Dean feeling lost and Sam nearly losing himself without his brother. It’s fire and reunion and a love never lost – ever-present and no longer deniable. 

pathossam:

Dean sits in stunned silence for a moment, before turning to his brother. “Sam, what–”

“When I was sixteen,” Sam continues softly, like he didn’t just lay an earth shattering, gut wrenching, heart pounding revelation at Dean’s feet, “I came home really upset and told you I thought I liked guys. I was so scared, Dean. All I knew about being bi was the guys in the locker room muttering about beating up any queers that looked at them too long. But, you. You, you remember what you told me?”

Dean is stunned into silence. He remembers that day, yeah. Remembers how clean and freshly cut Sam was as a man-boy, and how blue his eyes were when he cried. He remembers holding Sam against his chest, feeling the protruding bones of his spine and thinking that Sam was both the most fragile piece of glass and strongest cut diamond in the world. He remembers pulling back and saying–

“You told me I could love whoever I wanted, that it didn’t make a damn bit of difference to you. That nothing in this world could make you turn from me or think any less. You,” and Sam smiles, thinking, a little bit of that sixteen year old left in Sam’s thirty-two year old grin, “you told me I could bring a goat to the prom.”

Dean smiles in spite of himself, pressing his shaking hands together. “Sammy, I–”

“You gave me permission to love you this way that day, Dean. And I’ve never stopped, not ever. I told myself if I ever got back out of that cage I’d, I’d tell you. So.”

Dean presses his side into Sam from where they’re sitting shoulder-to-shoulder in the dim light of Sam’s room. His brother has never been anything but brave, and so fucking smart to pick up on the hidden meaning he meant all those years ago, hoping he’d both never figure out, and hoping he would.

Dean turns his head to look at Sam, and Sam is already staring at him. Their eyes catch, and every year of their shared history plays between them. Every beautiful, painful inch, and Dean knows what he’s about to do will change nothing and everything.

“Shut up and kiss me, Sam.”

holdmesamthatwasbeautiful:

Dean is pale, and he stares at
Sam with a terrified expression all over his face. “I don’t understand,” he
says, his voice thick with distress, “I thought we – I thought you felt the same!”

Sam flinches before he snaps: “I
don’t! I, this, what we have – it’s
too fucking messed up, Dean, don’t you get that? I never wanted things to go
this far between us, it needs to stop.”

Dean’s eyes are wide and
glittering in the harsh lightning of the motel room. “God,” he whispers, “God,
I’m so sorry Sammy. I never meant to – I thought. All those things you said, I
thought you wanted this. We can stop, of course we can stop, but Sammy, please
don’t leave!”

“I want to,” Sam tells him dispassionately.
“I need. I need to get away from you, Dean.”

Dean’s eyes are brimming with
tears when he takes a step towards Sam. “Please,” he begs. “Sammy.”

“Don’t,” Sam says, his voice all
ice, “Come near me.”

Sam leaves Dean alone beneath the
ugly florescent light of the motel room.

When he reaches the parking lot,
John is there; leaning against the impala. His hands are shoved into his
pockets, and he regards Sam with a blank expression.

“Did you do as I say?” John asks
shortly. “Did you end it?”

Sam’s face is wet with tears. “Yeah,”
he confirms, his chest thick and aching with guilt. “Just please dad, please don’t punish him.”

John’s face is dark. “I won’t,”
he says stonily. “If you leave.”

Sam closes his eyes, feels his heart break, and nods.

KICK ASS SPN FIC REC LIST

samgirlfanfictionhoard:

Does anyone else ever wish Ao3 had a ‘Recommended Fics’ feature? Well, you have me, and that’s the next best thing.

Hover over the ‘other fics like this’ fics for summaries.

Triggers are usually listed at the beginning of the fic.

Gen (No Pairing)

Their Summary: Sam Winchester has made his choice in the little abandoned church at the end of that lake-side lane. Not for the first time, Dean can’t stop him from throwing his life away. But things don’t always go as planned, especially not for the Winchesters, and now they have more than one mess to clean up.

My Summary: Fully immersed AU where things happen and it is awesome.

Other fics by this author: Crown Upon His Head, Who Says Brother, and The Promised Land

Their Summary: Stabbing a Leviathan-filled angel isn’t something someone can just recover from. Especially when he has a brain full of Hell before he even makes the attempt. Dean cares for his catatonic, insane little brother. And angsts. And barely copes.

My Summary: Sam goes insane and I want to cry.

Other fics by this author: Let’s Start At The Very Beginning (Remix of Just As Easy As 123)Let’s Get You Fixed Up, and Kodachrome

Their Summary: Tracy Bell learns something while recuperating from an injury.

My Summary: Sam opens up to someone about everything that’s happened so far (written S9) and gets the redemption he needs.

Other fics by this author: Kill Your HeroesBad Blood, and Comfortably Numb

Their Summary:  For roguishfeathers, who said: “Well, I like the thing when in outsider’s POV we get reminded our sweetest bby Sam is both a sympathetic guy who comforts witnesses and doesn’t let harass a waitress, and a gigantic dude trained to be a killer (who used to have psychic powers) you wouldn’t want to mess with~ I prefer fics set in later seasons. I like angst a lot but only include it if you like it too 😀 Thank you!”

Second person POV. Includes Carlos, who was mentioned in 9×17 as a contact of Sam’s who knows something about demons.

Apologies for anything related to the Catalan language or any Catalan customs that I screwed up. If anyone has a correction, please let me know.

My Summary: Author’s summary covers it pretty well.

Other fics by this author: SlurOn Bread Alone, and Live Wire

Their Summary: Sam and Dean Singer (aka Winchester) aren’t your average young Kansas farmers. Their home is very, very far from Kansas, in fact. Many light-years worth of ‘far’. The boys may look human, but certain talents set them apart: Dean speaks the language of machines, and Sam can heal through manipulating energy. Hidden on Earth by their father, their agricultural lifestyle gets rocked when warring alien races discover where they’ve landed, and Sam and Dean are forced to make the run of their lives.

My Summary: Sci-Fi AU with the Harvelle’s more like hell yeah.

Other fics by monicawoe: Heaven Doesn’t Want Us, Hell’s Afraid We’ll Take OverUnless Its Roots Reach Down to Hell, and Nothing Left to Lose

Other fics by quickreaver: Blind Luck‘And She Was’, and Of Course You Know This Means War

Their Summary: Although much has been written about the sociological and theological importance of the “End Times War”, there has been much less written about the individuals directly involved. Using interviews with primary sources, this paper seeks to examine how Dean and Sam Winchester, two criminals with a history of violence and petty theft, became commonly known as a prophet of the Lord and the Anti-Christ.

My Summary: Narrations of the apocalypse and the Winchesters. Pretty Outside POV-ish

Other fics by this author: Missed the Mark, Stay, and credo ut intelligam

Their Summary: After the events of 9.19 (Alex Annie Alexis Ann), Sam is asked to reconsider his status in the universe.

My Summary: Boyking!Sam. He’s also really polite.

Other fics by this author: ArroganceOnly Ever, and Choices

Their Summary: The intensity of the close bond between the Winchester brothers inspires envy, awe, admiration, longing and even suspicion in outsiders. A series of stories told by individuals after unforgettable encounters with Sam and Dean.

My Summary: Outside POV. Who doesn’t love that. And borderline wincest, oh yeah.

Other fics by this author: Deep Dark Secrets, What Never Will Be, and In The Darkness

Their Summary: Dean’s bored and he found a list of “National Day of…” website. Set vaguely S9 and beyond, just because.

My Summary: cute fix-its and fluff

Other fics by this author: FunnyCars and Couches, and Emails

Their Summary: Being in the same room isn’t the same as being together. Someone decides that Dean needs a little extra kick to get him back in gear with his brother before it’s too late.

My Summary: Time-travel fic. YES.

Other fics by this author: Two One-Act PlaysDandelion Wishes, and Do Not Meddle

Sastiel (Sam/Castiel)

Their Summary: Castiel had expected to be able to feel it—had expected Sam’s hand to be warm with hellfire, with a taint two decades old. But it was cool to the touch, just a human hand. (first one)

My Summary: A year passes between Dean’s raising and Lilith breaking the seals. In that year, Sam and Cas grow close

Other Sastiel fics by this author: SeptemberLight Up the Sky, and The Seven-Ten Split

Their Summary: Castiel grabs Sam’s hair by trailing his hands up the back of his neck eliciting a groan from the other man; Sam finds that one spot near Castiel’s hip that drives him wild, makes his fingers clutch at white sheets and Sam’s name slip out in a rushed pant. Exhales are lost in tousled hair, gasps coming up short in the hollow of quivering throats, easy laughter drawn from kiss plumped lips because they’re giddy still even after the first time. Every hour is a second of Sam’s absence that they reclaim, yet every smile and touch is worth a month by itself.

My Summary: Traveler!Sam w/ human!castiel

Other Sastiel fics by this author: Sam’s Clothes, Even Like This, and That’s Two Stones with One Bird (Or A Flock, Actually).

Their Summary: Castiel, a clone of Jimmy Novak, escapes from the 3D printing factory, only to come across Sam Winchester, a friend of Jimmy. Although initially distrustful of each other, Sam eventually takes pity on the injured clone and decides to help him.

My Summary: Surprisingly fluffy, and very long.

No other Sastiel fics by this author.

Their Summary: Maybe Sam and Castiel shouldn’t have returned to the Men of Letters bunker following Dean’s death. Then again, it’s the closest thing to home that they have these days. Even with the mysterious, ghost-like echoes of past inhabitants surrounding them, the bunker offers a safe place to mourn. To find each other. Maybe to heal. The bunker, after all, takes care of its own. Post season nine AU.

Other fics by this author: A Matter Of FaithElements of Journalism or: How to Find Friends and Alienate Your Superiors, and After

Their Summary: Started as a tumblr prompt from holydarkhallelujah: Sastiel as teenagers in the 1950’s, sneaking out together.

It has turned into so much more for me.

My Summary: Boys sneaking out and throwing rocks at each other’s windows

Other Sastiel fics by this author: Prayers and Confusion, Mister Grace and the School Dance, and I Would Like To Kiss You.

Their Summary: What do you do when you lose everything? When the person you love the most just disappears? There is no perfect way to deal with Dean’s absence and no magical solution, Sam come to that conclusion very easily right after loosing his big brother. He’s lost, desperate and scared and Castiel seems to be the answer. Sam has always loved Cas and yet it doesn’t feel right, it’s never enough, pretending is not enough and he must live and be happy for his mother, he must find a reason to keep on and on…

My Summary: Angsty af, have fun

Other Sastiel fics by this author: None. Oh well.

Their Summary: Prompt: Castiel watches Sam grow up and occasionally visits him under different guises.

My Summary: In which Castiel is Sam’s guardian angel

Other Sastiel fics by this author: Just Like Before

Their Summary: After Castiel’s death, Sam tries to forget about him, but he feels like he’s still around—somewhere. Sam starts writing him letters.

My Summary: Angsty H/C if that’s your thing

Other Sastiel fics by this author: I See Inside YouRelief, and Apparition

Their Summary: When Sam, a pirate, and Castiel, a naval officer, go overboard in the midst of a fight, they must form an uneasy alliance in order to get back to the St. Mary’s naval port, and save Dean from the hangman’s noose. Sastiel pirates AU.

My Summary: SASTIEL. PIRATES. AU.
WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?

Other Sastiel fics by this author: GuardianAssassin, and Stargazing

Wincest (Sam/Dean)

Their summary: True Love really is blind…

My Summary: An episode-by-episode look at Wincest, based on the sheer amount of subtext provided in canon.

Other Wincest fics by this author: The Suite!Verse series
Works inspired by this fic: Stumbling On The Road So Far by FlyByNightGirl.

Their summary: Dean sees an advertisement for Sam’s preferred brand of boxers, which claim that they’re designed for those well-endowed in the genital area. Following this, Dean spends an inordinate amount of time obsessing over whether Sam’s dick is bigger than his, and then just obsessing over Sam’s dick.

My Summary: …Actually, the above summary covers it quite well. However, I would like to add that there is a prank war, if that sweetens the pot any. You’ll notice that this fic isn’t very angsty either, but don’t worry. Most Wincest is.

More Wincest fics by the same author: Limericks in TranslationSin City, and Significavit

Their Summary: A cult is rumored to be guarding the Fountain of Youth. Oh, and while investigating it, Sam and Dean get roped into getting married. Yep.

My Summary: Sam and Dean get fake married and yes it is a very entertaining trope.

Other Wincest fics by this author: Kissing GamesThe Eight Hard Ways, and the Duality verse

Their Summary: Our story takes several steps away from canon. Dean Winchester is an only child. Mary died November 2nd, 1983, but neither in a fire nor on the ceiling. Five-year-old Sam is deported to a concentration camp for monsters. But the core remains the same.This is a love story.

My Summary: Sam is a ‘monster, put in a camp and Dean visits him sometimes.

Other fics by Brosedshield: And I shall raise you from the dustBlood Rush, and the Hell Shall Not Wash Us Away series

Other fics by LaviniaLavender: Boys in a JunkyardSimple Gifts, and Home Remedies

Their Summary: Prison AU. Dean Winchester is a new correctional officer at Douglas County Youth Services where he meets Sam Wesson, a fifteen year old inmate who’s been charged with arson and the death of his parents. Dean finds himself increasingly protective of the young inmate, but as his personal life gets more complicated, Dean has to find out exactly how far he’ll go to keep Sam by his side.

My Summary: Ummm…. their a happy ending? That’s always good.

Other Wincest fics by this author: Sex is a Battle, Love is a WarDaddy, Please, and CrossRoads.

Their Summary: Sam and Dean go undercover at a couples retreat for Alphas and their Omegas to root out a monster. Dean hates being an Omega so the fact that he’ll have to openly be one and stop taking his suppressants pisses him off. Still, the more they pretend to be a happy Omega and Alpha couple, the more he starts to think that maybe being an Omega isn’t so bad, not if Sam is his Alpha..

My Summary: A/B/O fic that I actually like. With a feminist, psychic ghost.

The other fic this author wrote: These things inside myself

Their Summary: When the infamous Winchester bad luck strikes twice in quick succession Sam and Dean are forced to compete in the most brutal reality TV show ever created. It’s impossible to escape the battlefield, hiding can only be temporary, and alliances inside those dark, bloodstained woods last about as long as it takes for the other Hunter to figure out how to use your weapons. And then kill you with them.

My Summary: VERY well-integrated Hunger Games Wincest AU that’s almost 100k

Other Wincest fics by this author: Courting DeathLuna De Miel, and You gave me your bullets (and I gave you my love)

Their Summary: Nine years ago, Mary Winchester was killed by a demon with yellow eyes, leaving her mate and two young sons angry and desperate for revenge. Now, the demon will learn that the only thing worse than a pissed off hunter is a pissed off werewolf… or three.

My Summary: AU of the events in preseries up to S1. REALLY interesting, and very much loved by me.

More Werewolf!Sam AUs: Hunteri Lupis by sashton, Lost Little Wolf by outofmymindbebackshortly, and Howling Your Heart Out by Yukio

Their Summary: Eyes on the road, thought you knew how to drive this thing.

My Summary: Witty banter, the Winchesters go to a fair, and fluffy first-time Wincest

More Wincest fics by the same author: Anywhere Roadlike teeth, and the howl series

Their Summary: The world is over, and it’s a Winchester’s lot in life to cope with anything – no matter what…This assumes Sam was not killed at the end of season 2 and that Dean never had to make the deal

My Summary: Winchesters are the last people on earth.

Sorry, I actually couldn’t find much else like this fic.