This might not be 100% what you asked for, but I hope you like it anyway!
Warning for gory descriptions.
The ceiling fan twitches overhead, making its final slow circles in the dark. Everything is quiet, except for Dean’s soft snores and the occasional car passing by outside, a hush like waves as its tires scrape the asphalt. Sam focuses on these things, as well as the dull pain of his thumb bothering the scar on his palm. If he doesn’t, he’ll have to look to his left where Jess’s skin is blackened and flaking. He refuses to look, but he can feel her smile, made crooked by the incoming wisdom teeth which had bothered her in the months before she died.
Sam pulls the thin motel sheets up to his chin and rolls to the right. Dean is sweaty and sleep-warm, his arm dangling over the side of his bed. Sam wonders how he does it. How did he relearn to sleep after forty years in Hell?
Sam isn’t sure when he last slept. Dreams and wakefulness are to difficult to tell apart these days.
i like jensen’s paleyfest dad cardigan for many reasons but particularly bc it fuels my headcanon that dean Fricking Loves those cardigans they have to play family counselors/social workers/other assorted cosy roles in (much as he would never, ever admit it to Sam)
Guys I am super emotional about seeing Jared playing the piano in the lobby at VanCon. We know he is musically inclined and can play the guitar (and the piano and who knows what else) and it kills me that he feels so insecure compared to others. One of the reasons I wish he would at least once play at a convention SNS, whether it be guitar or piano or singing or whatever he wants, is because I know how supportive the fans would be for Jared. I can just imagine how much the cheering and love and support would mean to him, and it might help him feel a bit more confident in his musical ability. I just wish he knew how fucking incredible he is.
This is why Sam doesn’t talk about the cage to anyone. As someone who’s been abused, it’s hard to talk about it to someone who cannot even fathom what that traumatic experience is like.
I’m SO glad Sam found someone he could open up to, even if it was Rowena. And it was good to see Rowena be vulnerable and admit she’s scared shitless. This was very healthy for both of them.
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