Rowena: How do you deal with [your memories of Lucifer]? Sam: I guess I don’t…deal with it. Not really. I mean… I’ve pushed it down and I… The world kept almost ending, so I keep pushing it down. I don’t know… I don’t really talk about it. Not even with Dean. I mean, I could. You know, he’s listen, but… It’s not something I really know how to share. Even if you do get the book. Even if you do get your power back, it won’t matter. You won’t ever be able to change what happened. You won’t be able to change how helpless you felt. Or how helpless you feel. You’re still going to get scared… and that feeling… that feeling never goes away. Rowena: Never? Sam: Never.
~ Making out in the back of the Impala ~ Holding hands while working cases ~ Drunk Dean bragging about how great Sammy is ~ Even more married couple banter than usual ~ Dean being the only one Sam gives up research for ~ Always sharing motel room beds ~ Sleepy Dean slurring, “Love you, Sammy,” before going to sleep ~ Sam falling asleep on Dean’s shoulder ~ “Jerk” and “Bitch” being included in their ‘wedding’ vows ~ Sam making Dean a homemade pie for their anniversary
#celebratingdean // week 10: significant objects (jewelry) “In the beginning, when we were doing the pilot, I said ”You know, I want Dean to have jewelry, because he’s in this supernatural world, he travels around, he’s probably got amulets and things that are associated with what he does.” So the costume designer and myself went through this whole box she just dumped on the table and I saw something that was really cool and I saw another thing that was really cool and I was like ”Yeah, let’s do these.” And of course I had to okay them with Eric and he looked at them and he’s like ”Okay, we’ll come up with reasons why you have these.” – Jensen Ackles, Chicago Con 2007 [x]
1. hot leather and gasoline fumes and burnt flesh and old sweat on a motel mattress, and off-brand shampoo in a brother’s hair, and every ma and pop diner in the u.s. and truck stop bathrooms and blood stained fingernails and cheap beer in the summer
2. strong coffee and gun powder and rotting wood and dried come in shared boxers, and sulfur and smoke and whiskey in the morning and new asphalt, and love, and love, and
