having rewatched it 2 days ago i can tell you with Some Precision:
sam’s shaking hands patching up his own bullet wound
dean all faux cheery ‘we’ll laugh about this later sam’ as he extracts the bullet
sam referring dean over to the wounded civilians despite having just been SHOT IN THE STOMACH
dean’s absolute outrage as corbin suggests leaving sam behind
dean ‘i’m going to make him a litter and we are going to CARRY him the rest of the way’ (fan art of this please can you imagine, sam reclining like a gray-faced roman emperor)
sam all shaky-voiced in that cabin ‘you guys go on without me… please…’ so sELF SACRIFICINGGGGGGG sam whyyy
frickadicking corbin chOKING SAM and sam’s face as he does it and the STONE COLD HORROR we all felt as it happened omfg what an amazing episode it was
dean out there in the trees so desperate getting angry with a branch and having to take a moment to compose himself A+ work from Jensen Ackles my man
that moment when you’re anticipating dean getting back to the cabin to find sam dead
dean devil-may-care pouring himself a handful of assorted poisons and knocking them back like tictacs
dean to michelle ‘if the doc can’t bring me back, no hard feelings, okay?’, crinkly-eyed reassuring but DEAD INSIDE ALREADY
dean foaming at the mouth
sam REVIVING WITH A WHEEZING GASP i died
the moment where sam stumbles and falls down the stairs all his legs everywhere SO MUCH HURT SAM
sam casually taking out two werewolves whilst bleeding heavily from the gut
sam’s little relieved collapse against the car once he gets to the impala, it’s like she’s alive and she’s his friend
the moment when dean hears sam’s voice on the phone and his shaky ‘oh thank god’
SAM SHOOTING GODDANG CORBIN like a BOSS
dean so casual ‘took you long enough’ a thin thin facade of cool over a BOILING LAVA VOLCANO of tearful relief
the way sam collapses in the hallway like a puppet with its strings cut
seriously that last moment slays me so bad
the crinkliness of sam’s wan face as he stumbles back to the car at the end of the episode
all the weight of knowledge and familiarity in sam’s question to dean (’what did you do, when you thought i was dead?’), dean’s answer (’i knew you weren’t dead’) (FOOLING NOBODY), and sam’s decision to just let it be
literally this episode by and of itself makes the whole of season 11 worthwhile. they should just have screened this episode every week. it’s like a fanfic come to life. if supernatural went this hard every week i wouldn’t even be able to hold down a job i would have to full time fangirl so hard
YA GIRL JUST BOUGHT HER JARED PHOTO OP FOR PITTCON !!!!!!!!!!!
Sam waits until Dean is in his room, and then double checks that his own door his locked before he dials the number; he knows he could go to Dean and tell him just how awful all this makes him feel, and he knows Dean would listen, but Dean can’t get it– through no fault of Dean’s own– and Sam needs to talk to someone who understands the feeling.
“Samuel, how lovely to hear from you,” Rowena’s voice travels through the phone, hazy and velvet, and Sam has never been happier to hear her voice. He can’t be bothered to heed Dean’s warning that she isn’t their friend; right now she’s what he’s got, and he believes in her anger as much as he believes in his own.
“Rowena,” he says, “please tell me that spell worked.”
There is a long pause on the other end of the line, filled with Sam’s hammering heart and the gentle static fuzz, the anticipation, the fear that never goes away, before he practically hears Rowena’s smile along with the words, “Don’t you worry, Sam– I won’t make his death quick.”
jared could have a 24/7 live feed of his life and i would probably die from sleep deprivation just so i don’t miss him doing something stupid like brushing his teeth or tying his shoe.
EDIT(again): I was also tagged by @lovedsammy weeks ago to do this, so thank you!! <3☺️
I am 5’7 or taller | I wear glasses | I have at least one tattoo | I have at least one piercing | I have blonde hair | My abs are somewhat defined | I have or have had braces | I love meeting new people | People tell me I’m funny | Helping people with their problems is a big priority to me | I enjoy physical challenges | I enjoy mental challenges | I’m playfully rude to people I know well | I started to say something ironically, now I can’t stop saying it | There is something I would change about my personality | I can play an instrument | I can sing well | I can do 30 pushups without stopping | I’m a fast runner | I can draw well | I have a good memory | I’m good at doing math in my head | I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute | I have beaten at least two people in an arm wrestle | I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch| I can throw a punch | I enjoy sports | I have learned a new song in the past week | I’ve gone running at least one week in the summer | I work out at least once a week | I have drawn something in the last month | I enjoy writing | I have done martial arts | I have had my first kiss | I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting | I have had alcohol | I have scored a winning goal in sports | I have been to an overnight event | I have been in a taxi |I have been in hospital/er in the past year | I have beaten a video game in one day | I have visited another country | I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts | I have at least one person I consider a best friend
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EDIT: to add i was tagged by @waitingforthesong AND @nursedean a little while ago for the second half of this (and took terribly long to actually do it whops). Thanks guys!! 💙
name: Lauren
nickname: occasionally gilbs, comes from my last name but only my barn friends use it
gender: female
star sign: gemini
height: 5′9
hogwarts house: ravenclaw!
favourite animal: Horses. or dogs. or maybe giraffes. One of those three lol
average hours of sleep: 6? sounds about right
dogs or cats: both i can’t choose I have a dog and cats and I wouldn’t wnt one or the other
dream trip: Italy, i wanna go see the museums and the art and the history and explore little towns and the beaches.
dream job: Something to do with horses, still trying to figure out exactly what. Used to be a veterinarian but now idk
when i made my blog: 2013 i think, it was around the time season 8 of supernatural was airing, i think I made it closer to the end of season 8.
followers: 925, i’ve been stuck in the 920s for a while! hoping to get to 1k by the end of the year??
why i made a tumblr: I had just binge watched 7 seasons of SPN and was starting to watch interviews and such, so I wanted to get to know more fans. And have an outlet for my obsession
reason for my url: Boyking!sam is my weakness
favorite musician/band: Don’t have an all time favorite, but I’d love to see Imagine Dragons or Of Monsters and Men in concert
tattoos: None currently, but hopefully getting my first in a month or two!! #AKF
favorite emoji: 🙃 I use this one a lot lol
THANK YOU ALL OF THE LOVELY AMAZING PEOPLE WHO TAGGED ME TO DO THIS. Sorry I took forever, love yall!
Not tagging anyone specific, but if anyone sees this and wants to do it go ahead and say I tagged you!😊
codependentsamanddean prompt: “Sam you can be whatever you want to be. You’re not Dean. You’re not your dad. You’re Sam. Sam is so awesome.” -(Sully, Just My Imagination 11×08)
